Where do I belong?

 

I often wonder, ‘where in this world do I fit in?’ 

No matter the circle I find myself in, I always feel alone. Sometimes I may feel like I am connecting but along the line that connection snaps and I come to a realization, ‘i don't belong here.’  often, there is nothing that puts me off really, I just stop feeling warmth, and when I'm not feeling warm, I become uncomfortable and retreat so it is just me, myself and I again.  

Sometimes, it could be the way they think or talk or their behavior. A lot of things irk me, I'm not a perfect person, I have a lot of flaws but there is a level of perfection I want to have in a friendship. 

I had that once but unfortunately, it came to an end and it was good while it lasted. 

That warmth is hard for me to come by, so I can't help but wonder, where do I belong?  

Where would I feel at home? 

I want to believe in magic and miracles so badly that one day, I can draw my warmth closer to me like a beacon. 

Kind of like Harry Potter, yeah? 

I’m a scavenger on the hunt for my freedom.