Him - The Light

 I was lost and confused and then he came. Through the darkness it was like light had shone when I saw him. Zoomed past me but I felt a sense of peace watching him. Just him and no one else and he smiled at me and all the instincts in my body drove to, I always want to see him smile. How my tummy churns when I see him get hurt, how I wish I could express how I really felt or tend to him how I really want to. 

I would smile at him just to have him smile back and there it was again, the calming feeling, it is like time has slowed down every time. I want to be in his embrace and have him tell me everything will be fine. I want to feel his lips on mine... The lips of the light... One of the angels on earth. 

His behavior... It’s kindness and it warms my soul and I want to care for him. 

I lust after him, I can barely control myself around him. In my consciousness, of my behavior, I'm either too shy or too cold. 

I don't know if the light likes me, the light knows how I see him. The light has been nothing but a good friend but is that satisfying? Is that where I want to be? When I'm holding my breath when he’s close because my heart began to run in overdrive. I don't know the words too say so he doesn't have a reason to judge me. I want to know more of him but I'm afraid to.  He is amazing, I might get trapped in my feelings. 

The light drifted my mind from my worries, all I have to do is watch him or hear him. That aura around him, I can almost see it, i’m drawn to it like a moth to a flame. 

I want to love him, I want to make love to him, I want him all for myself. 

The feelings have refused to fade and I don't know what to do anymore.

The light doesn't seem interested in my little glow. 

Perhaps... In another life.