The Heart Cries

 Hmm… here I am again. I guess… 

It’s funny, I’ve been thinking of what to write and came up with nothing. Then tonight, voila! I had something out of nowhere, I guess I jinxed myself. 

As I excel in life, I feel happy about it yet kind of sad. Sad because I want to go on romantic dates, adventures with my partner, good sex every day after a stressful day. Instead, I’m just stuck in this dry unexciting loop called adult life and I really am still young. I feel empty, like my time is being stolen from me but there’s not much I can do about it because yeah… I need the income. 

My heart yearns for affection. I want to retired every night into the arms of my partner and let my hair down. But my heart can’t seem to move on and I can’t feel what I should. 

I look forward to a day I can have the luxury do such things. Perhaps it’s too early for me or maybe I just can’t have it all. Rubbing on my chest just above my heart to stop whining, I’d do what I always do. Spoil myself and ignore my problems.