A Note From The Warm Side Of My Heart

Hey Mister, how are you doing today? 

I feel a little blue. I keep thinking about what could have been, if even it was true.

For a while it’s felt like a push and pull, to be honest I don’t know who’s pushing and who is pulling but every time I see you I think, ‘Oh, he’s so cool!’ 

I don’t blame you for not trusting me, I haven’t given you a reason to. But bear in mind the saying, don’t judge a book by its cover. 

Remember when we chatted at length about the things we’d like to do together? I’d still like to try them. 

I’m a very curious mind, I wonder what your lips taste like, how they feel, how your skin feels, what your touch feels like.

I wonder what it takes to make you smile, make you melt, make you mine. 

When you speak I listen, I just want to dive deeper into your mind. Bet there’s a lot of things I’d find and that’s the beauty of it all. 

I’m not trying to play games, I want to get to know the real you. Go on dates, stay indoors, find solace doing the things that’d become our thing. 

I know you enjoy reading, you could read to me your favourite books and tell me your best parts. I like writing, I could write a book tailored just for you based on your likes and preferences. 

You know what else we have in common that’d be magic when we hop on random cruises, but I wouldn’t mention, so this isn’t too obvious. Perhaps, I’m overthinking it.

I want you to get to know the real me, not the me that you perceive as my truth. 

I’m pretty fucked up, yeah I guess but aren’t we all? 

I want to care for you, love you if you’d let me. 

This isn’t some drunk confession, random thought or out of boredom sham. 

This is real because it’d kill me to know we didn’t even try. 

Tell me what you want and I’d listen. If I can live by it, let’s do it. 

I’d be a bad girl for just you, if you want me good though, I can’t promise you. 

If you can make me weak, do it. 

If you want me, as bad as I want you right now, come and get me. 

If this is a dream, I’m still living in. Whisper, “It’s time to wake up.” 

I don’t know if I’m to send this to you or just hide it out here, hoping someday you’d find it. 

You probably would think it was for someone else if you did. Lol, I totally get that. 

You dazzle me though, let me know what’s up. 

XOXO

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